I want to roll over at 2 a.m. to a kiss from you not a text message
(via cyhbercutie)
I'm sorry things aren't going well for you right now. I sincerely hope things get better for you soon.

Thank you.

I’m always there for support and give people advice. But no one checks up on me or asks me if I’m doing well. Not even a single “how was your day?” from my mother.

Life is stupid. And I hate myself. I had suicide thoughts earlier and it made me happy because I wouldn’t deal with all the stress, responsibility, and drama I’m in. I wish I could end it. I really do. Being gay sucks and I’m a nobody. No one appreciates me. No one asks me if I’m okay.

It’s never a “wanna hang out?” Or “so and so asked me to hang out but I rather hang out with you”. But instead she leaves me and I’m just like, oh. I’m a jealous person, but the fact that we’re not as close makes me feel so isolated. Even more than I ready feel.

And I always wanted to ask her and be like, “hey why don’t you ever think of me for once?” I mean, that sounds really selfish, but I just feel like she’s so uninterested in the things we do and in our friendship that she would rather hang out with other people. Even if she got me a really small gift I would be so happy, because I know she thought of me.

The day came. It finally happened. It unofficially lost my bestfriend. It’s obvious and things aren’t going to be the same. I’m just a dumb jealous friend.
I’m stupid and I hate myself.
She obviously likes her better than me and it’s okay I guess. I saw it coming. But I wonder where I went wrong? I was always there for her and got her small gifts to show I appreciated her.
But she didn’t really do the same, which I was okay with. I didn’t want to seem like I wanted something in return.
And now that we are not as close
I feel more alone than ever.
I’m not in love with her or anything, but I sorta lost my best friend. And it sucks because it’s happening during the end of Senior year.

You can be the ripest, juiciest peach in the world, and there’s still going to be somebody who hates peaches.
Dita Von Teese (via thecreepylittlegirl)